Well, here I sit.  In my home office.  With the window open, blowing in all the delight of a warm, spring afternoon.  I have started my new job.

New jobs are kind of rough.  You never really know what is expected of you.  I always attempt to maintain the external facade of "everything will be alright," even when I'm quaking in my boots, and to some extent, this is no exception.  On the flip side, there's the beauty of a new challenge.  A new mess I have never sorted through before.  A new bunch of people who have no reason to not like me.  Then again, my insecurities have also resurfaced...what if they find out I really don't know anything? I was able to beat those back at the old job, because I had been there longer than anyone else.  They weren't there when I looked the stupidest, but I was there when they did.  It was all good.

I did just complete my first real task for the new job, though, and it felt good to at least produce a document of some sort.  I do like a nice spreadsheet, especially when there are no numbers.  I should do one for the other problems mulling around in my head.  They are, in no particular order:

1. How does one sell a house by oneself?  We are firing our realtor at the end of the month.
2. What kind of decorations/food/games - do we need games? - does one need for a child's first birthday party?
3. What do I need to do in order to host my in-laws for three days in a house that must be kept clean at all times?
4. Whom should I call to interview for the new article I am writing for the local wedding magazine?
5. Where does one buy a kid cart for biking?  Will she sit in it?  Should I forever give up my love of biking because it's all just too damn hard to figure out?
6. How long should one wait to buy a plane ticket to Florida in August?
7. Is it better to book hotels in Chicago in July now or closer to July? 
8. Where should my beloved and I go for our date on Saturday?  Our last date was in January. I don't remember how to date.
9. How long can I put off painting my toenails? When does sandal season start?
10. Should I teach my class in the fall or not?  If I don't (because I want some free time, darn it!  I want just one job!), does that mean I'll never be able to teach again?
11. Why does my husband want to start his own business?
12. Should I do spring cleaning now, or hope someone buys This Old House and I'll never have to do it?
13. How long has it been since I've seen (fill in the blank) group of friends?  Who are they, again?
14. If the little angel is turning one, does that mean I get demerits for not having any of her baby book done?

These and other questions have been swirling in my head all week.  Eternal chaos is my constant, I guess.